DoodleOogles

*Sechzehn*

To say that I know a lot is an understatement, and oh boy how I wish I didn’t. There are times when I still couldn’t decide if it’s better that I DO know and let my mind and emotions be bothered OR, not know anything and be led to believe in something that may not even be real. Talk about unwanted choices, huh?

When he turned his back and left, I tried to look away because if I look at his silhouette for too long, I would begin to imagine what’s gonna happen after he’s out of my sight. Of course I DO know what date is it today and I DO know why he’ll be out. Like I said, I know a lot and wish I didn’t.

It’s kinda confusing to have so many emotions at one time. It can be overwhelming. I try to focus on my job and surprisingly, I’m doing perfectly fine at it, I ain’t distracted or anything. I guess it has something to do with accepting the harsh reality of how things are happening. Though, of course, once in awhile there’s this li’l devil who whispers the truth I already know and it pinches me inside.

Plans? Since my shift ends early, I will head straight home, get some much needed sleep, take vitamins, spend time with Caden in the afternoon and give my brains some rest. It’s been working overtime for the past few days, I better be kinder to it, otherwise I might lose one of my most valued organ.

Yeah, that’s it for me tonight. Just taking down some notes to refer to in the future. Let’s all hope I can look at this post a month from now and just be able to laugh it all off.